Massively insecure
Hi, not sure how many can relate to this or provide advice, but I feel like I need some reassurance.
2 years ago I stepped out of a relationship and suddenly got sucked into the femboy rabbit hole, where I slowly began through stages. Unfortunately it devolved into a mess, with my feed being a 50/50 of trans / bp community. (Disgusting I know.) I eventually convinced myself estrogen was the only way out.
I began taking it 8 weeks ago, but the problem is I convinced myself to be a woman when I'm not. The drawbacks of estrogen for the future and lack of research has made me a man again. Although Its also not what I want. I want to be genderfae. But now in order to get anywhere near passing I need to do so much I was never taught to do. If not, I'm essentially a ghost and can't even function socially. I feel really alone. I know I have a good capability of passing as a girl.
Does anyone have anyways they cope with being biologically male? I know most of what I have to do, but right now its hard to deal with and I want to hear it from long time genderfluid people: What did you seek comfort in? What styles made you feel better and fit in more? I know I'm missing out on a lot right now. Social media poisoned me.