It still feels surreal
Im 15 years old I have taken care of my great-grandma for the last 5 years(since my great grandpa died). She has been the main focus of my life that entire time and as of 3AM on Monday May 18th I sat there and held her hand and watched her take her last breath. It feel like my family has moved on today we made the funeral arrangements they elected for me to be the one and only person other then the pastor to speak at it and they let me make the final decision on decorative stuff as well as her wish to be cremated and buried with her husband however while we were doing all of that they kept joking around laughing and acting like it was this hilarious thing whilst I sat there shaking. It still doesn't feel real I still cant imagine life without her...I dont know what to do anymore.