I took rad 140 at 16 and I regret it.
So before reading this and lashing out in the replies (you have all the right to do so) please hear the full story, so the story started I would say on my 16th birthday in like may 10th I remember I had this friend who used to be jacked like literally he is like the most jacked/muscular kid in the school right now he is 1 year older than me and I saw him once in my gym we chatted a bit and we planned to workout together later as so our relationship kinda became better and we started working out together more often until eventually I asked him like what do u do or eat to be that shredded and muscular like what’s ur diet or smth, and I remember he told me he uses PED’s and I was very surprised I’ll be honest cause I remember when I was like 14-15 and until now I used to think of steroids of like this thing it’s like black and white and suicidal and I never ever even researched it or thought about it like most kids should. But eventually I’ll be honest he told me yo bro wanna hop with me on this rad 140 thing it’s so good and insane you well love it I told him nah man I don’t want to play with my hormonal system that early other then that steroids has like horrendous side effects but he brain washed me by saying things like it’s not a steroid it’s a sarm or some shit (spoiler alert they are both the same thing literally) after him showing me results that’s amazing proving his bloodwork is fine and multiple people who took it I was brain washed I’ll be honest and I agreed I told him only this shit or sarm and I would never touch any of these substances again he said ok he ordered them online literally just to show how much anyone could get them shipped to his house no matter what age knowledge he has other than it literally says not for human consumption which I had to know it’s a red flag by then but I took it anyways 10mg with my freind for 6 weeks I felt amazing in all means so I started working out with my dad dumbells I would say like at 14 and a half and doing weird ab exercises until I gut to the gym at 15 which I took it seriously like half way in and I remember I was sooo skinny like I was at 14 5’6 like 125lbs and at 16 I was like 6’2.5 and like 175lbs mostly gained muscle and I am like 13% bf before I started rad I was perfectly fine I looked not muscular but athletic lean and nice looking for my age after rad I remember I went from 175-200 and went down in fat 8-10% bf whilest going from 195lbs on bench to 275lbs I was feeling like a beast and it was amazing until I remember it I was scrolling through YouTube and I saw this Greg duccuete video about him talking about teens on steroids and I remember it was like a week ago I was watching it and saying what have I done to my self note:I have not researched it tell now on my own I thought since my freind is taking it and he is older and muscular and has a lot of experience he knows good and I followed him blindly until a week ago after oppening the video and I researched a lot after nowing and reading all the side effects I sincerely regret it and I truly wanna go back it it’s possible I was on week 6 when I stopped i am I would say 5 days out without using it end if anyone who is older than me and has experience can help me on what should I do next what’s the next step I wanted to tell my parents but I feel shame though if it’s necessary I would do it but if some one who has experience with this stuff and is older than me not bull shitting some crap like my freind which I blindly trusted can tell me what should I do and is my puberty doomed for ever/my life I am very worried and these couple of days I was always thinking what the hell am I doing with my life I think god has planned all this the video and me waking up from my freind shit and lies that it’s safe and does nothing I distant my self from my freind but before that I told him about everything and that we should stop it immediately he started laughing at me which is just annoying and shows how much of an idiot I was following so if anyone can help me other than this idiot and answer all my questions and concerns it would be great thank u 🙏