What am I doing wrong?
So; I’m in the southwest of Western Australia and have been experimenting with the fly agaric over the past few years…. I’ve “successfully” decarbed tea in the past and recently made a brew that made me so violently sick I had fell asleep in cold sweats shivering. Twice. Just to be sure; I then had one positive experience eating a single fresh cap. Tried this again yesterday and I was sick for 2 hours again, luckily not as violently as the first 2 times, genuinely it was brutal. Now what is it? Am I just not made to stomach this? There’s relatively pleasant effects after I’m done dry wretching and the sweat has crusted over lmao…. But I recoil at the thought of putting myself through that again just for a buzz comparable to 3 or 4 standard drinks.
Some physiological context for relevance: I’ve struggled with alcohol in the past but have been clean for the last 2 months so I am not inducing withdrawal from gaba antagonism; not from that anyway. I did just get off a mild Valium habit but haven’t had any benzos for over a week and I am not struggling to sleep, am not anxious or feeling WD in any way.
Does anyone have similar reactions? Advice please 🙏