I feel like I'm falling behind
Every day I get to listen to my friends being in happy relationships or about to enter one. I hear about their first experience kissing, their dates, how they spend time with their partners, how they hug and cuddle them and I'm just there. I never get to experience anything like that. I can only stand and listen about their happy time and get nothing. I can only sit at home and imagine how would kissing my girlfriend feel or how nice it would be to cuddle, hug, talk, watch things together, go on dates, just spend time with each other and be happy together. I get to see posts about people being in happy relationships, going on dates, having experience and I never get to experience it myself. No one sees me as an option. No one likes me. Every time I try to ask someone out it ends badly for me and I end up hurt. Everyone around me can be happy except me. It's not the country or the area I live in because I know queer people are there and all of the ones I know are already in relationships or they rejected me. I just wish I could have a happy relationship too and for someone to finally love me for once.