I spent the night at my LO’s
… with her and her wife.
Of course, absolutely nothing sexual happened. We went to the beach yesterday, then had lunch and drank a bit, then walked around. And suddenly it was 8pm and LO’s wife said “why don’t you stay? we’ll eat pizza and watch the match”. And so I did. It’s 7pm and I’m still at their place, helping them organize some stuff.
On one hand, I’m so glad I did that. They’re lovely people, and I really enjoy watching their relationship dynamic. I also got to see LO in pyjamas relaxing and chilling at home. She’s just absolutely perfect omg.
On the other hand, I had to really FIGHT the urge to lean on her while we were lying on the sofa. And it also shattered any (tiny) lingering hope that maybe one day all three of us could have some fun together.
Neither LO nor LO’s wife see me that way. Tja. I kind of knew, but now it’s confirmed.
I’m happysad, if that makes sense. I feel like this is the perfect ending to our relationship, a nice weekend together doing nothing. Now I need to start and stick to NC.
but gosh do I ABSOLUTELY ADORE this woman. Her silent grumpiness when she wakes up, her silly jokes, even the varicose veins in her legs! 🤦🏻♀️🥰