I have never even chatted wirh similar bots or even interacted wirht hem and my page is filled with bloody kpop singers and random footballers and random people. How do I fix this its really getting on my nerves
Iv only used it once so sorry if its wrong but I LOVE extra text and long responses. I love to read them. And the fact it only costs one opal and we get 50 a day!? SIGN ME UP! PLEASE NEVER BOTCH IT 🙏
Tw: small mentions of anorexia, deppression and family issues
Im young, still a teen so I live with my parents. And one of the worst things living with them is how I feel like, especially my mum just gave up caring.
Iv been struggling with my Depression and Anorexia since 2024 and anxiety and OCD since I was 7 but was never diagnosed untill 2024. Now this was 2 years ago and because I have been so up and down with getting better and getting worse I feel like just because there's "no other directions" everyone has given up on me entirely.
My mum struggled with her own depression when she was 19 so older then me and yet it feels like when she did give a shit she only really saw me as her younger self that she couldn't fix and tried to fix me how she helped herself. And getting mad whenever im not better because "its been two years and we haven't made progress"
I admit in some form I dont want to get better and I dont know why but I would want it more if i wasnt treated like its my fault for not being good enough.
Its gotten to a point that any bad though stems from just needing somone to listen and understand, not just say im not trying.
And it also goes with my heigine. I admit im disgusting, I can go days without showering but all I get isnt pity, isnt reassurance, isn't empathy, its just anger and disgust even tho I have told everyone multiple times that if it was that easy I would just do it because I do feel disgusting, yeah. But its not that easy and I feel like im drowing in myself and getting worse BECAUSE of my mum. Because of someone I love, because of one of my favourite people.
I dont know how to fix myself and I really dont need to be fixed rn. I really just want a hug and somone to cry onto who wont look at me like im somthing that cant be fixed.