u/Overall-Address-94

So back in middle school i was in a strict islamic school it was an obligation to wear the hijab, long sleeves long skirt, memorize the quran everyday, you get the deal. So every 2 weeks on exactly friday the girls would be led to the bathroom to do a "period inspection" so the deal is, the teachers would hand us a tissue one by one, and we would enter the bathroom, rub it on our private area and shows it to teacher to prove that we are on our period. As to why there has to be an inspection is because while everyone is praying the girls who has their period would just sit on the back so thats why some might lie i guess. I told my mom recently about it after i changed schools and she got silent and told me i shouldve told her sooner. Back then i dindt see a problem with it but now i felt weird thinking about it now. It makes me uncomfortable.

Are all islamic schools like this? If so then maybe im just overreacting and turns out this ritual is normal.

Like im taking 9 A levels because of our countrys education system 💔 for some reason we're not allowed to choose our own subjects like in the UK lol like taking physics,chem,bio,math and economics is pretty much mandatory here. Problaly more i noticed that a majority of my classmates are failing due to the pressure and how hard it is. I just wanted to talk to someone who has the same problem. Any indonesians? (Yes i come from the im taking 9 A levels post. Turns out its not possible in my country to take 3 A levels due to the education system i appriciate ya'll help and support but its pretty much impossible unless i do private candidate lol)

I woke up this night and i suddenly cant go back to sleep. So i scrolled on tt and suddenly saw this post of a kid who lost both her parents. And i suddenly thought to myself, how would i feel when this happened to me? Usually i cant imagine it at all. But this perticular night i actually imagined the feeling of it actually happening. Its horrible. I dont think i'll have the will to live anymore..i also realized that i'm living my last years as a kid. In 2 years i'll be an adult. My little brothers voice is starting to change. I think he'll hit puberty soon. Gosh it feels like he was only 4 years old yesterday. And my parents is getting old too. Everyone is. I dont even know anymore. Life feels like its going too fast for me. I still wanna be 10, sleeping in my parents bedroom listening to my dads story, playing with my broher and riding a motorcycle with my dad. I'm just scared of what the future holds i guess.

So for context my mom is very religious. I asked her once if eating pork in minecraft is haram and she said it is. I was honestly joking when i asked her that but she was dead serious and said like "well why cant u eat anything else?" Mom its a game. And its hard to tell her about stuff to because she'll always somehow connects it with religion. It dissapoints me whenever i told her how i was recently diagnosed and how i've been having mental health issues and she told me the devils are lurking around me. And every bad thing that happens to me are somehow the devils doing, it makes me feel like shes always dismissing my feelings. and she heavily believes in taboo.

From 13-16 i was forced to wash my period pad everytime i took it off because in my religion when unwashed pads get thrown in the trash can without washing the devils would lick it and they would stick to us. I stopped when i researched about it on google and its approved that washing youre pad is actually bad since it would spread bacteria. When i showed her the articel she said google knows nothing. Because of her contants religious lectures and other stuff i grow up to not being religious. I'm still a muslim but sometimes i have trouble believeing. But honestly i dont wanna change my religion. Mainly its because islam is the only religion i've ever known and ig makes the most sense. And i still believe that Allah does exist. Its just hard sometimes.

Oh and everytime i asked her questions like "mom why does Allah does this and that?" Most of the time she has no answers to that and just replies with god has his own reasons

So for context my mom is very religious. I asked her once if eating pork in minecraft is haram and she said it is. I was honestly joking when i asked her that but she was dead serious and said like "well why cant u eat anything else" like what? Its a game. And its hard to tell her about stuff to because she'll always somehow connects it with religion. It pisses me off when i told her how i was diagnosed with MADD and she told me the devils are lurking around me. And every bad thing that happens to me are somehow the devils doing, and she heavily believes in religious taboo.

From 13-16 i was forced to wash my period pad everytime i took it off because in my religion when unwashed pads get thrown in the trash can without washing the devils would lick it and they would stick to us. I stopped when i researched about it on google and its approved that washing youre pad is actually bad since it would spread bacteria. When i showed her the articel she said google knows nothing. Because of her contants religious lectures and other stuff i pretty much stopped believing.