u/Own-Airport-5942

Okay guys , so I heard this because it’s hard for me to get along with others. I don’t mean I’m problematic or starting drama or toxic ,

I just be cutting people off and if they try hollering at me again it’s like bye, I want nothing to do w you, why are you speaking to me. I hate to be like “it’s my personality disorder” and blame it on mental illness but 😬

it’s hard because you just don’t fit my standards and it’s extreme and horrible but it’s just me. I never attack or abuse or harass anyone , I just keep to myself and of course people find that offensive !!

What was your family dynamics like or your childhood.
I’m SO extreme but honestly not surprised looking at the way my narc parent was towards me, raised me to have 0 flaws, lived vicariously through me, but also my biggest and first hater, enemy, and saw me as competition.

I have body products , perfume, and things I “save” for perfect occasion. (Never) and it’s been YEARS, I’m so afraid to use them and mess them up. Even with clothes that I wash and nicely organize. They look so nice it’s almost painful for me to wear them.

I dread the whole process of washining them with right soap, right dryer sheets, matching fragrances, ironing, folding / rolling. Putting into bins etc. neatly. It’s takes a lot of time and it looks so nice, I get almost angry and obsessive when it’s touch but that’s what it’s for!!