BPD split / crashing out after being provoked
F26 here: Regardless of the diagnosis and the stigma that comes with it, I’m curious if anyone else with BPD has experienced this:
Even before you had a diagnosis, did you ever feel like certain family members, friends, or romantic partners would intentionally push your buttons, treat you poorly, provoke a reaction, and then use your reaction against you?
Those of us with BPD know that when we reach our breaking point, our emotions can come out intensely. That doesn’t mean we weren’t hurt, pushed, or affected by what happened before that moment. It can be incredibly frustrating, especially when you’re actually in a good place mentally and working on yourself.
As a woman with BPD, I would say I have a strong sense of confidence in myself. Of course, I have insecurities like anyone else, but I wear what I want, dress how I want, enjoy my hobbies, and make choices that genuinely make me happy. I go places by myself, eat by myself, and take long walks alone (I don’t drive, so I’m often out on my own).
What bothers me is that I don’t go out of my way to tear other women down, gossip about people, or make others feel bad about themselves. So I sometimes wonder why some people feel the need to do that to me.
Has anyone else, especially women with BPD, experienced feeling like people try to provoke you, test your boundaries, or make you feel small and then blame you for reacting?