I want my spark back... I want to revive myself
Yes, I couldn't finish it all 🍧
How do you deal with the fear of not finding anyone better than your ex?
How do you deal with the fear of not being loved so much again?
How do you get back to yourself again?
How do you not get the first thought of him as soon as you wake up in the morning?
How do you deal with the guilt of the past?
How do you forgive yourself?
How do you get the motivation to not rot in your bed and be energetic and excited like before, before that relationship even started
How do you love life again?
How do you get curious and want to explore the world again?
How do you get the undefeated self again?
I wish I could erase and forget 2023-26 like it never existed
Everyone says to move on, do you think I don't want to? Do you think I want to stay stuck in my past? I try to move on but I can't even lift a finger sometimes
Strange but I feel like I'm still not ready to let go of my past or I just can't? Idk..... Idk anything anymore
Idk...... But ig I want my spark back, that jolly and bubbly girl I used to be, I was childish but I was aware of things around me....people, emotions, and the world around me, I used to fear no one and I was always upfront, I had that light in me that I could see and so did people around me....
Somehow this feels like the end of the world