Went to USA for masters, biggest mistake of my life. What do i do
my_qualifications: MS in Business Analytics from Baruch College, NY, USA
I’m sorry but I had no other place to rant. I don’t think I have ever been so disappointed with myself as I’m rn. I went to USA for MS two and half years back with two years of work ex in a different field than my degree. After my degree I vigorously applied to atleast a 1000 places, appeared for maybe 20-25 interviews and all of it was for nothing. i never got hired. And now my time for looking for job on opt has run out.
my biggest regret is I realized a few months into the degree that I never even wanted to do this. I never really wanted to come here. I know I sound like a fool. And I deserve every bit of what I’m getting. I had a decent job back in India, I lived at a good place, my parents home was barely an hour away, I visited them often and I was financially doing well. For this damn degree, I put in all my savings, took out a huge loan on my family home and absolutely ruined my life, all for what? FOMO. I never even wanted to come abroad, I simply did it because I saw everyone else do it. I know I sound like a toddler but I need to let all of it off my chest because even therapy is so damn expensive in nyc. I just saw alot of my friends leaving for different countries and I thought of doing the same. I’m suffering rn for something that wasn’t even purely my own action. This has been so hard to admit because the entire time I kept convincing myself that it was me who wanted it. And I got so damn brainwashed by social media. I wish to god I hadn’t made this choice. If it wasn’t for loans, I would have left this place mid degree. And now my worst fears have come true, I honestly have no idea how I’d face my parents back home because of instead being a supportive member, I just put our house on the fence. The loan is massive, it would take me years to pay it back. I wish to god I could undo all of this. And to top it off, I honestly didn’t even enjoy my time here, I never felt at ease in US. This place just wasnt for me.
Whenever I saw a pessimistic post in this sub about not going abroad because of not finding a job, I always felt huh this would never be me. Guys, please, it can very easily be you. Please don’t go abroad because of falling victim to this herd mentality, please use your own brain. I wish I had. I put everything at stake for something that wasn’t even a part of my plan. I feel like crap. I don’t even know what use of is this degree, the field is literally so saturated. I don’t know what to do or feel anymore. I have been numbly packing my bags since yesterday.