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Earlier last year, I had this maddening urgency to come to India and start my gender transition. But I chickened out due to various factors, and now the government fucked it all up.

For context, I'm in my early 30s, NRI born and living in the UAE. I've been suffering with gender dysphoria since I can remember in my teens.

There are lots of things that I don't like about India, especially the current central government and such. One of the saving graces for me personally was the knowledge that I could come back some day and transition and live a genuine life, till they changed the law.

Where I'm at, transitioning is dangerous to do due to many reasons - I've met and talked with other trans women here. How they took synthetic HRT and caused health complications, how they lost their careers, how their friends circles disappeared.

My family would disown me if I came out, so I can't tell them anything about it. I've convinced them that marriage is a bad idea for someone with mental illnesses like me, so atleast there's no pressure to marry and fit in.

I'm feeling kind of lost and at the end of my road, thought I'd share it here.