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Today was my last day of Week 4 of Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself by Joe Dispenza, and honestly, I don’t even know how to describe what I’m feeling right now.

These past four weeks have been an incredible journey. I’ve uncovered so many deep-rooted subconscious patterns, fears, and beliefs that I wasn’t even fully aware of. I’ve noticed so many positive changes in myself. I’m generally much calmer, more aware of my thoughts and reactions, and somehow I feel more like myself than I have in a very long time.
But along with all these positive changes came A LOT of emotions.

Especially right now, I feel completely overwhelmed by something I can’t even identify. There’s this intense sensation around my heart, almost like a cold, wet, pulling or tingling feeling. It’s really difficult to describe. It feels like something emotional is coming to the surface, but I have absolutely no idea what it is.

And the strange thing is, I can’t seem to just sit with it or allow it to be there. It feels too intense, almost like it’s more than my conscious mind can process or hold at the moment.

I’ve experienced some pretty intense emotional releases during these four weeks, but this feels different. I don’t even know what emotion I’m experiencing anymore.

I genuinely feel that these four weeks have changed something in me, and I’m really grateful for that. I feel more connected to myself, more peaceful in many ways, and more aware of the patterns I’ve been carrying around for years.
But right now, the emotional intensity is honestly a lot.

Has anyone experienced something similar during or after Week 4? Especially this overwhelming feeling around the heart, where emotions seem to come up without you even knowing what they are?
I’d really love to hear about your experiences and how you dealt with moments when the emotions felt too intense to simply observe or sit with. ❤️

Guys… HOLY MOLY. 😳

I genuinely cannot believe what just happened.
I’ve been doing Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself for three weeks now. Over the last few days I’ve had a lot of sleep deprivation and honestly haven’t been feeling that great from the meditations. But today I sat down to meditate anyway, and I was around the phase after the body scan, where you allow the emotions to come up.

And then something just came up. I wasn’t even consciously looking for it.
It started with:
“You lied. You lied to me over and over again.”
And then this really old emotion came up that was clearly connected to my childhood:
“Why don’t you love me? Why don’t you love me? I did everything. Why can’t you just love me?”
I started crying so intensely. I honestly haven’t cried like that in a very long time. Tears were literally running down my face, and I could barely follow the rest of the meditation because this emotion was just completely taking over.

And now comes the part that is absolutely blowing my mind.
For probably eight or nine years, I’ve had this specific pressure point on the lower left side of my chest. It has always felt like a knot or a very strong pressure pain. I’ve had it medically checked before and nothing was ever found.

During the first two weeks of the meditation, whenever he talked about imagining what it would feel like to be free, to be without the pain, I kept thinking about exactly that spot.
And guys… I’m pressing on that spot right now.
The pain is almost gone.

There is still a tiny bit of something there, but that strong pressure I’ve known for years is suddenly not there in the same way anymore.

I am honestly sitting here in complete shock. I was always a little bit like, “Okay Joe Dispenza… let’s see what happens.”
And now I’ve just cried my eyes out and then literally started laughing with happiness because I touched that spot and realized something had changed.
I genuinely don’t know what to think right now. I’m just completely overwhelmed.

ich bin 24, lebe jetzt seit fast drei Jahren in Köln und hätte total Lust, mehr queere Leute kennenzulernen und vielleicht irgendwann auch eine kleine queere Freundesgruppe zu finden.

Ich habe zwar einen Freundeskreis, aber mir fehlt manchmal ein bisschen der Austausch mit Leuten, die ähnliche Erfahrungen machen und einfach so ein bisschen „gleichgesinnt“ sind.

Ich hab total Bock auf Cafés, guten Austausch, coole Outdoor-Aktivitäten, spontane Unternehmungen oder gemütliche Indoor-Sachen wie Brettspielabende. Ich bin definitiv eher Team Brettspiel-Chiller als Partymaus.

Wenn man mich allerdings ganz nett fragt und sehr viel Überzeugungstalent mitbringt, schafft man es vielleicht auch mal, mich in einen Club zu schleppen.

Falls ihr coole queere Veranstaltungen, Gruppen, regelmäßige Treffen oder irgendwelche Insider-Tipps in Köln kennt, immer her damit! :)

Hey, ich bin gerade in Woche 2 von Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself. Seitdem bin ich tagsüber extrem müde und könnte gefühlt den ganzen Tag schlafen. Gleichzeitig schaffe ich es abends oft erst sehr spät einzuschlafen und mein Schlaf fühlt sich insgesamt schlechter an.
Hat das jemand von euch während der Meditationen auch erlebt? Hat sich das irgendwann wieder normalisiert? Ich träume auch sehr intensiv und wache mit starken Emotionen auf.

Danke !

Hallo, hat wer von euch noch einen Drive Link zu den Joe Dispenza Kursen ? Den mit den Mediation hab ich, nur der mit den Video- Kursen ist leider Down ..
Hat wer noch Alternativen ?

Wäre Mega dankbar!!