u/PastelGhostFan2616

Hi, hi! I'm Ava. I like music, art and Vocaloid, of course!

I need to give some context: I am mentally ill, which sucks and I hate. I have 2 disorders, autism and MDD.

I am a minor and use Vocaloid and songs from Gorillaz to cope with how I feel (it steered me away from self-harm).

I have listened to songs like Sayoko, egoist, miss wanna die, useless child, and patchwork staccato. I want more songs that feel relatable. If you can find any, please let me know. Anyway, have a good night/day!

Hi! I'm Ava. I'm turning 13-16 (not gonna specify), and I have a complicated relationship with Vocaloid. I became a fan from ages 10 all the way to 13, and I got bullied badly when I told others (even my so-called friends) I like Miku. They made things up, like me liking it for, er...18+ things, which I find rlly gross. And it turned me off from being a fan of Vocaloid for a long time.

Mind you, the bullying had gotten so bad I had to go to both therapy and was involuntarily sent to a ward since I was so depressed, so I genuinely have CPTSD from school now. (Every time I go to school, I feel as if speaking is impossible and get shaky the whole day) But now I'm back into Vocaloid and wanna collect cd's of it and figures, but I'm so so so so so scared it'll happen again.

What do I do?