u/PasupuPapa

Ivala oka supermarket ki poyi intiki kavalsina sugar packet techa. Indulo special enti antava? Nenu supermarket ki bandi meeda poya.

Indulo mari inkemi special antava? Nenu gear bike lo poya ☺️☺️☺️

That's it, today I drove a gear bike alone for the first time without anyone accompanying me. 😊

For context, I already know how to ride a scooter. Ma intlo epati nuncho Activa undi. Ma intlo andaru Activa tolutaru.. my dad, mom and me. My dad ey ekkuva vadutaru. My mom and me rare ga vadutam. But recent ga ma mom daily podduna oka gudiki povali ani cheppi ma daddy second hand lo Splendor teeskunaru. Teeskuni o 7-8 months avutundi. But recent ga enduko naku aa bike meda povali ani aasa. Ma daddy summer lo elago vadatledu because of the heat. Heat valla ayina ekkuvaga car lo ne potunnaru.

So ma daddy ni nerpamanna. First two days ma dad drive chesthe nenu venukala kurchunna. Aa gear ela marchali epudu marchali ani cheparu. 3rd day nenu try chesa. Almost ventane ochesindi. But oka two days just ma inti mundu road meeda matrame tolanu. Aa oka chinna road ee end to aa end continuous ga back and forth try chesa. 6th and 7th day ma colony lo matrame tiriga.

Inka final ga ivala oka supermarket ki poya which is 2 kilometres away. Adento Scooty enni sarlu toluntano.. aina kuda aa bayam and aa kotha tanam. Nenu main highway meeda poledu. But dani adjacent road which is also a big road lone poyi ocha. Intiki sugar tho raagane ma daddy mummy inka nannu tega congratulate chesi inka ma daddy ee sandarbham ga biryani kuda konaroch 🥰🥰🥰

Bike riding mari antha difficult kadu.. and it feels really special. And indulo highlight entante na eduru oka guy was walking.. he stopped dead in his tracks and looked at me with wonder and amazement. Tanu just watched me with such surprise. Tanu ala chusesariki naku chala siggu vesindi and murisipoya. But I realised that I was about to get distracted and lose control. I immediately brought myself together and focused on the ride. Inka supermarket reach ayyaka supermarket lo tanu shock ayyina vidanam taluchukuni nenu siggu tho almost sachipoya 😚😚😚

So yeah, I'm proud of what I did today and wanted to share here. I only drive 40 KMPH. Ante Scooty ne nenu anthe speed lo tolutha. This won't be any different. Plus inka nenu main road and highways ekkaledu. I'll practice more to the tune where I become comfortable riding this anywhere.

After 2 days of Good sleep, ivala sleep schedule malli dobbindi.

TV aithe on lo pettukunna.. but TV lo not playing anything. Phone lo Reddit ey tiragestunna. NGL, feeling extremely bored and sad.

Koncham oka daanne unapudu, tega sadness and swayam-harm thoughts ostunayi. Anyone tell me how to repress those thoughts. Intha sepu paatalu vinna. But na TWS charging aipoyindi.

Meerandaru emi chestunaru?

Trying to post this for the third time. Coz the first two times, it got "removed by Reddit's filters"

Ee Reddit gadu, first oka silly word vadinanduku oka warning ichadu.

Tarvata oka emi leni word vadinanduku 3 day ban chesadu.

Tarvata na kashtam chepukunna oka comment lo. 7 day ban vesadu. Tarvata appeal chesthe 2 days tarvata ban lift chesadu. Kani na comment ki reply ga okallu reply pettaru, inka vallani kuda ban chesadu.

Inka ey word vaadina automatic ga valla AI algorithm ban vesestundi. Context ento telidu. The AI doesn't know whether it's offensive or not. Just straight up ban.

Naku chala chiraku ostundi. This is how corporations control us. First they control our vocabulary. Then they control our actions. Then they control our entire existence. All of us are just slaves to a few powerful octagenarian white men.

P.S.:I'm sorry to u/Phantom_aqualot. Meru naku edo manchi maata cheppapoyi Reddit gadi ban ki guri ayyaru. I'm so so sorry andi. Please appeal the ban. I'm sure it'll get revoked

I am just an ordinary girl. Nenu koncham shy and introverted types. A little bit reserved and a lot more immature. Nenu peddaga relationships loki vellaledu. But the one relationship I had, I gave my everything to it. I loved that person more than I loved anything. I gave my all.

But in the end, it got broken. Not only did it just "break" but it got shattered and destroyed. I got cheated on. Tarvata nunchi deni meeda kuda interest ledu. Asalla daily chese normal things like eating and sleeping kuda chala ibandi ga anipistundi. Edo robot laga untuna but I feel like my soul was destroyed.

Elanti time lo asala relationships gurinche aalochinchatledu. Intlo vallu matches gurinchi matladinapudu, I just shoot the topic. Monna oka roju valu "nuvvu epudu cheskuntavu" ani adigithe nenu jeevitham motham asala cheskonu ani godava chesa.

I am currently not in the right mind... But oka pakkana anipistundi that whether I'm going on a right path or not. What will happen if I stay like this forever? Ala emi aipotada ani baya padi pelli cheskunni, aa ochina vadu kuda na ex lanti cheater aithe, what will happen then?

Edi right o edi wrong o ardham kavatledu. Nijamga nannu aa devudu ee lokam nunchi nannu teesukellipothe baguntadi. Na lanti simple manishi ki elanti complicated things asala set avvadu 😞

Naku raatira puta asala nidra ravatledu. Nenu entho try chestuna.. but asalla kudaratledu. Poni alagey melkunna, naku na trauma and bad thoughts tappa emi ravatledu. Raatira antha edustunne unta. TV lo emi chudalekapotuna. Oka chinna love scene occhina leda friendship scene mukyam ga occhina, I just break into tears.

Na valla kavatledu. I don't know what to do. Oka cage lo unna pakshi laga aipoya. Kanisam bayataki walking podam ante, naku ee aada brathuku tagilindi.. raatira puta ekadaki polenu.

Jeevitham chala kashtam ga undi 😞

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Nenu just na badhalu telupudam ani post petta. This isn't an invitation for people to slide into my DMs. Alagey chesina kuda nenu reply ivvanu.

So ma daddy ki oka oorlo pani undindi. Aa oorlo oka gudi undi. Adi chuddam anukunna. So daddy ni akadaki teeskupommanna. But daddy emo "naaku pani ayyesariki evening avutadi, apudu daka ekkada untavu?" ani adigaru. Nakuda teliledu.

Apudu daddy emi annaru ante "akada oo relatives unnaru. Morning bayaldari ninnu akada drop chestha. Evening daka akada undu. Na panilu anni muginchukunni ninnu evening pickup cheskunni manam gudiki poyi, evening kalla occheddam" annaru.

Sarey, antha fine. Morning bayaldaramu. Morning 10 ki reach ayyamu. Veellu evaro some random chuttollu. Daggara chuttame.. but naaku parichayam ledu. Nenu ey chuttollu tho kuda close ga undanu. Intlo oka working couple. Abbayi ammayi iddaru job ki potaru. Vallako chinna LKG papa. Aa intlo iddaru musalolu, aa abbayi valla mom and dad that is, aa chinna papa ki grandfather and grandmother. Aa papa ki summer holidays so intlone untadi tanu.

Ma daddy kaasepu maatladi vellipoyaru. Tarvata aa musaldi kaasepu maatladindi. Manchiga maatladindi. Nenu kuda manchiga maatlada. Kaasepu papa tho aadukunna. Tarvata tanu ento "koncham occhi vegetables cut chestava, ee lopala migitha vi ready chestha" annadi. I happily agreed and cut all vegetables and helped her.

Inka lunch time occhindi. Aa papa ki, aa musalodi ki, naaku... Andaraki plate lo annam pettindi. Andaraki pappu. Aa musalodu emo plate teesukunni TV munduki poyadu. Tarvata aa musaldi occhesi aa papa plate lo maatram, pappu meeda neyyi vesi.. kalipi.. inka aa neyyi Lopala pettesindi. Naaku veyyaledu. Nannu kanisam adagaledu. Poni kanisam tinu veskuntado ani akada table meeda kuda pettaledu. Edo bangaram annattu lopala shelf lo pettesindi.

Sarey le, edokati tinesi let's get this over with ani anukunnappuddu, aa musaldi emo "nuvvu elago tinadam start cheyyaledu ga, koncham uncle ki perugu annam petti ivvu amma ayina plate lo ... Nenu koncham papa ki tinipistunna" annadi. Ante? Aa musalodu tine daka daggara undi nenu vaddinchala? Vaadu pedda potigadu laga TV munduki pothe, vaadi venukala ninchovala? Vaadu legisi veskoleda? Lekapothe ee musaldi oo nimisham cheyyi kadukunni veyyada? Inka nenu ikkade wait chesa. 5 minutes tarvata vaadu hall nunchi just "perugu annam" ani arisadu. Nenu poi oka hotel waitress laga vaddincha. Aina hotel waitress tho polustunna enti? Vallaki kanisam tips ostayi.

Inka nenu na plate lo unnadi tinesa. Perugu annam veskuntava ani adigindi, nenu oddu ani cheppa. Asalke naku night motham nidra ledu. Inka nenu kasepu padukunta anna. Daaniki aa musaldi emo "avuna? Koncham antlu tomadaniki help chestavemo anukunna". Nenemo, ledu aunty naku full headache ga undi. Kaasepu padukunta anna.

Naako chaapa (straw mat) icharu. "Emi anukoku amma, ma guest pillows padaipoyindi. Emi ledu, ma intlo memu antha evari pillows valle vaadutamu. Vere valla pillows inkollu vaadaru. Guest ki pillows undedi.. kani monne padesamu." annaru. Sarey le edokati... Aa chaapa meeda padukunna. Kinda tala ki na chunni pettukunna. Nenu kinda mat lo padukunna. Pakkana bed meeda aa papa musalodu unnaru. Aa papa aadukunta undi.. aa musalodu phone chustunnadu... Which is what he was pretending to do.. Nijaniki aa musalodu side ga nannu chustunnadu. Arre nenu just chunni ne teesa... Adi kuda pillow ivvaledu ani. Daniki vadento he was checking me out like that ... And that too with his grand daughter beside him. Intlo aa pedda aama undi, oo Kodalu undi, oo manavaralu undi.. intha mandi sthreelu unde intlo veedu intha neecham ga ela unnado.

Nenu inka after 1 minute, I was like "ayyo, naaku AC padadu. Baaga chali vestundi" anna. Daniki aa musalodemo "AC aapeyamantava" ani adigadu. Ledu ledu, meeru padukondi.. nenu inko room lo padukunta" ani nenu inko room ki poyi nenu lopala nunchi lock kuda veseskunna. Nenu chaapa kuda teesukupoledu. Alagey solid ground meeda padukunna ... Tala kinda na cheyyi petti padukunna. Room lopala taalam vesinappudduki kuda naaku chunni teeyyali ante bayam vesindi. Full ukka ga undi.. the room was extremely hot. But I was so tired. Naaku koncham kuda sleep ledu. I just passed out to sleep.

Inka evening 4:30 ki talupu kottaru. My dad returned. Lechesariki full ga tadisipoya chemata tho. Inka sarey bayaldarudamu anukunnappuddu aa musaldi emo "tea tagutara" ani adigindi. Ma dad emo sarey anaru. Nenemo oddu daddy late avutundi bayaldarudamu ani cheppi inka vellipoyamu.

Bayataki occhaka ma daddy tho nenu "intiki podam daddy" anna. Ma daddy emo, adenti gudiki povali kada anaru. Nenu inka ventane "GUDI ODDU EMI ODDU.. ADE INTIKI PODAM ANNA KADA" ani arisi inka gattiga edichesa. Ma daddy emi analedu.. sarey sarey ani cheppi intiki teesukupoyaru. Daarilo motham padukunna car lo.

Inka intiki occhaka ventane first bathroom ki parigetthi ventane snanam chesa. Aa chematalu jiddu ni tudavadam kante kuda, aa musalodu choopu ni ventane tudiseskovali ani snanam chesesa. Tarvata ma intlo vallaki antha cheppa. Ma daddy emo godava veskunta adi idi ante ma mummy emo enduku oddu le.. aina manam vethukunta velladam mana tappe. Ee Sunday andarum gudiki podam pratyekamga. Evari gadapa tokke pani ledu anaru.

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So idi jarigindi. Athithi devo bhava annaru. Kani evaru paatinchatledu. Oka puta kuda undalekapothe inka enduku ee chuttollu, enduku idantha.

Mothaniki na jeevitham ika chalu anipinchi, nenu chala research chesa on how to go..

Apudu oka విషం gurinchi telisiocchindi.. adi teseskundam ani fix aipoya. Adi koncham teeskunte antham anedi confirm. But adi ventane radu. 2 weeks avutadi.

But nenem anukuna ante konni hours lo spruha tappi potanemo anukuna.. migitha time antha hospital lo spruha lekunda untanu anukunna. But deni gurinchi chustunapudu final ga oka Reddit thread lo oka single comment chusa.. a person who came across the victim of this poisoning. Athanu dani gurinchi explain chesinappudu naku bayam vesindi. Aa victim occhesi 2 weeks chala suffer ayyi poyaru ani cheppadu. Inka aa person ki DM chesa.. DM lo kuda ade maata annadu. Nuvvu spruha emi kolpotavu ani guarantee ledu.. Ala spruhalo unte 2 weeks motham suffer avvali anadu.

Ika I had to abandon that plan. Brathakadam kashtam ante, konni konni sandarbalu lo povadam kuda kashtam la undi.

You know, my life was just normal. A normal person living life normally, doing normal stuff... It was just normal. I liked it. Oka sari Reddit lo edo search cheyadaniki occhinapudu naaku ee Sub Reddit chusa. Appudu nunchi I used to read many stories.. some happy, some sad.. but epudu kuda account create cheskunne avasaram raaledu. Because I was just a normal person.. extraordinary ga cheppukunne la extraordinary stories emi lekunde.

But ala undadam aa devudiki nacchaledemo. Mamuluga unna jeevitham tala kindulu ga aipoyindi. Na BF naatho 2 years ga relationship lo undevadu. He cheated on me. Evarithono cheat chesunna naku antha impact undedi kaademo. But cheat chesindi na best friend tho. Eedu naaku just 2 years ga relationship anthe. Na friend maatram naatho school times nunchi friend. Eedu waste gadu ani cheppi lite teesukunnedanni. Kani na friend ala droham chesindi ipudu ki kuda sahinchalekapotunna

I wanted to tell the entire story. But I couldn't bring myself to type all that. It was one of the most truly painful experiences of my life. But it doesn't matter. He cheated on me and she stabbed me.

But in a nutshell, I found out him talking romantically with my friend. Naku telsaka vadini adigithe, well, nenu adagalekapoya.. endukante nannu complete ga ghost chesesadu. Phones blocked and no replies to messages. And nenu oka roju in person poyi adugudam ani pothe, na moham meda door vesesadu nenedo salesman laga.

Inka I went and confronted my friend. I kept asking "nannu enduku ila chesavu"... "Nannu enduku ila mosam chesavu".. she just kept giving me vague replies and she wasn't saying much while I was crying and shouting.

Tarvata ila tidutha ila annanu "Ma iddarni nuvve vidateesavu". Appudu tanu return lo na meeda arisindi "eyy aapu, nenu chustunna oorkine nannu antunnav? Avunu mi iddaru enni sarlu physical ga ayaru" ... That was a rhetorical question because she knows very well that I never got a chance to be physical with him. Besides hugs and kisses, I've never had the opportunity to be physical with him.

While I was staring confused, tanu emandi ante "nee kante ekkuva sarlu naatho physical ayadu. Alantidi nannu kadu, vadini anu.. vadini anakunda na meeda occhi arustavu enti"

Naaku inka oka sari maatalu aagipoyindi. Nakante ekkuva sarlu ante.. okata? Padi? Laksha??.. what does it mean? Also tanu ento ila "idi na tappu kadu, vadi tappu" annadi. But did she say that he manipulated her? Or was she bragging to me that she was more desirable than me that he got physical with her before he could get physical with me?

I didn't know. But I didn't care. After she said that nothing really mattered. Nenemi reply ivvaledu. Nenu inkemi adagaledu. I was done with them. I couldn't digest. Inka edchi edchi, normal ga unde nenu, ipudu ila aipoya. Normal ga unde life advadanam ga aipoyindi.

I now feel lost. I feel broke. Nenedo happy and jolly ga undedanni. Epudu navvutha undedanni. Ipudu naaku navvu antu poyindi. I only live because my lungs draw oxygen and my heart pumps blood.

But my spirit? Adi sachipoyindi.

My soul? Adi sachipoyindi.

My will? Adi sachipoyindi.

My hope? Adi sachipoyindi.

Inka nenu oka robot ni. Edoka roju daani charging kuda aipotadi.