u/Patient-Score655

I use to go to the gym alot and lost my drive. I've gained weight of course and lost a lot of progress. I want to start going again but it's hard with my schedule. Well not really. I co-parent and I use to take my child's mom to the gym with me. She like skr but has so much fun anxiety that she will only go with me. It sucks because our schedules doesn't exactly match and we also don't have anyone to watch our chil who is under 4 while we are at the gym. We get along fine but I feel fat and actually made myself throw up because i felt like I ate too much. I'm not as happy and obviously not as confident. I want to go but I feel bad beucase she has so much more self esteem issues than I do and want to work out. It's just hard beucase I feel like I can't focus on myself without thinking about her as well. I want to eat better and work out. Not blaming her because there are definitely things I can myself. Going to the gym just helps out so much more. I'm not sure what to do.