u/Pattatoni

I‘m writing this with tears in my eyes, trying to get some relief. I don’t really have someone in my real life who would understand what I’m about to say. Romantic love has always been a major topic in my life. I always dreamt about this romantic love that you find when you’re a teen and you stay together for the rest of your life. I have manifested my ex-boyfriend last minute when I was 18. We were together for 7 1/2 years. We have been in a long distance relationship for a long time which has actually been a pattern of mine in past relationships. I’ve known about the universe and manifestation since I was a little kid. But I got back into it because of a very dear friend again 2022. After one of the hardest years of my life. So I decided to manifest myself out of this long distance relationship and finally get the relationship that I have always desired. By the way at the time where I manifested him, he was my perfect match like I manifested certain traits and looks, etc. I truly thought I had found my partner for life. We’ve had our ups and downs for a couple of years. But I was always able to turn the situation around with literally manifesting it, changing self-concept. But and fears always started to creep in at some point, especially when things got rough. A year ago I said to him that I cannot do this any longer, and he said that he couldn’t either. He was about to break up and I was like it is your decision now do you wanna try and fix this or do you want to leave? and so he decided that he wanted to fix things and move here (I could move because of my job situation). I was so happy and I felt so close to my manifestation a.k.a. the relationship not online but in real life. Because as I said, everything else was great. Things got bad again and he was withdrawing himself. Fast forward to a month ago, where I was like I cannot do this anymore. Cannot handle this hot and cold behavior I cannot go on with you, ignoring my wants and needs. And him not doing anything to keep the relationship going. so I took some time to write a letter which I did send but two days after he received it I broke up. I just received his answer and we were no contact for this whole time. we did have some talks about the future like having kids and stuff like that. But all of this is actually not the point I’m trying to make. The point is that I thought that I was so close to my biggest desire my biggest manifestation. And now all hope is lost. Not only have I lost the dream of finding my soulmate as a teen. But now I’m also thinking if even this love couldn’t last. Then which can. I have to say that I am asexual and I think this makes it even harder. I think I will never be able to get out of those cycles of manifesting some parts, but they’re not sticking to the new self-concept and just going back-and-forth with everything. I am so tired of living, and this does not only apply to love, but too money as well. I know there’s been a lot of people in this community who are going through or have been going through something similar. I’ve read about those stories, but I never thought I would be one of those people writing stuff like this. At this point, I would really want to go back to being just pure consciousness. I honestly hate this human experience so much. I don’t wanna spread any negativity to hear, but I need some perspective because I know I’m not thinking clear right now. Any thoughts and help are highly appreciated. And I’ve also sorry if this was kind of confusing. I’m just a heartbroken 27-year-old girl who is trying to finally love herself.

Hi everyone, I don't know if this is the right sub for this topic, but I need some help from someone from Australia. I'm trying to find the exclusives for a reasonable price (I already have the raccoon).
I've seen people on Reddit and Instagram lately who were able to get them all for VERY reasonable prices. I was hoping that someone could help me find them on either eBay Australia, Australian FB group, whatever other local second hand apps you have, etc. If you could function as a proxy shipper that would be lovely too!

In return I can help finding/ buying European exclusives or pets that are very common/ cheap over here! :) I'm currently doing such a trade with a friend from the US, to proof that l'm reliable ;) I'd love to hear from you, much love🌷