▲ 112 r/Schizoid
I realized I lack a basic sense of security and stability in this world. Even if everything is objectively fine and nothing is happening, I feel like the world is hostile, and I simply don't feel comfortable being here. Is this the same for you?
This feeling has been embedded somewhere in my brain's fundamental settings since birth. It's as if everything around me is hostile and uncomfortable, and I lack the strength and inner support to cope.
Unconsciously, I always expect the world to throw a curveball.
That's why I've always had a calm and loving attitude toward my own death. Death is a way out of an unstable and unsafe place. It's peace and liberation from unnecessary, meaningless tension.
Is this something schizoid? What do you think about it?
u/PerfectBlueMermaid — 2 days ago