Having trouble defeating depression.
I’ve been having trouble defeating my depression for the past few years. It’s always just hits me out of nowhere it first started out me feeling completely empty and hollow. But it seems like once I find something to fill it, whatever it is either shrinks or the emptiness feelings gets bigger. I always keeps smiling and try to push through it. I gym, temporarily play piano, I run (6 minute mile time) and jump rope. I spar time to time. I paint and work. I’ve tried looking for a partner but when I succeeded it didn’t feel right. I’ve stopped playing video games and started exploring new music. I try to hangout with friends but I keep coming back to constantly wanting to be alone. I just want to be okay or just better… like I want to feel fulfilled not empty