mehhhh
i hate that i miss someone that probably doesn't even miss me, i know that hes forgotten about me considering that it's been almost 2 years since we last ever spoke, and that actually hurts me alot because i'm not over him at all, i think about him everyday, every minute and everytime i do something that reminds me of him, its actually driving me crazyyy😭
yesterday i had a mental break down because blink-182 was playing on the radio and that was his favorite band that he would try and put me on with, i actually bawled my eyes out for a guy that never really liked me much to began with, for a guy that even if we did get back tg, i would never gain anything from. deadass hes a unemployed 26 year old bum that does dancing pill videos on tt and makes racist jokes abt jews, there is so much bad shit about this guy that would make any women run away from him. Every women BUT me, i actually love him ALOT and idk what to do anymore i just miss his beautiful face. i have dedicated a corner of my room as a shrine for him (embarrassing..) and idk im just weirdly madly inlove with a guy that would probably lose interest in me as soon as i turn 18 😓
edit: stop trying to groom me unless you're a nordic guy named handes thats 26 and lives in his grandpas house ok😡