My prom dress makes me want to die - are my feelings valid?
Basically, for context my mum passed when i was young so I live with my dad. He has never been present in any important things for me. Year 6 prom? Organised by my auntie (dads brothers wife)
All of my secondary school events? Didn’t come. So when it came to prom dress shopping he completely opted out. My boyfriend’s mum offered to fully pay for my prom dress, hair, makeup and shoes because she knew my dad doesn’t care and “hasn’t got the money” (he has spent thousands on my little brother in the past 5 months). So when i told my dad he said “ok fine” so obviously we booked appointments yada yada. Then it came to 3 days before my prom dress appointment (14th Feb 2026) and my dad’s mum (Nanna, who my dad lets make all decisions for me and can’t tell her no)calls me screaming how im not going because “we won’t accept charity”. So, she begins to look for prom dresses for me. Every dress i suggest is “too ugly” or “too expensive” (bear in mind she denied a fully funded prom dress) even though my boyfriends mum is so well off. Basically in the end, she lied to my dad about the price of the dress i wanted (it was £250) saying it was £700+. So he forced me to go to this woman to get a custom made dress inspired by one my nanna picked out. I absolutely hated it but went along anyway. So fast forward to yesterday when i had my first try on (my prom is in 4 days and I still don’t have my dress) and i fucking hated the dress. I look fat and feel disgusting in it. I genuinely want to cry every time i think about the dress I could’ve had. I actually don’t even wanna go to prom anymore. Am I valid in feeling this way or not??