u/Pickle-Honest

Father of my 2 young kids and stepdad to my teen has relapsed on cocaine again.

I left the family home 1.5 years ago with my kids and was put into temporary accommodation and now thankfully have a long term stable home. He was dealing drugs and I found drugs laying around the house numerous times. After years of lies and relapses I left for the kids safety and for my sanity.

Fast forward to now he had been doing so well. I started allowing unsupervised contact and we even went on holiday as a family. He was clean 1 year. I was so proud and considering giving our relationship another go.

I went to collect my kids from his one morning last week. Him and the kids were asleep on the couch.. they were in pjs, nappies full of pee and the house was a mess. I walked through to the kitchen and found a plate with lines of cocaine on the top shelf. I also seen powder residue on his dining table.

I’m absolutely heartbroken, angry, all the emotions! It turns out he’s been using for months… I removed the kids and told him they will not be back to his house and all contact will be supervised until he sorts his shit out. I recently started a new job and now I’m going to have to get something else as I was relying on him collecting them from nursery twice a week and covering when I do the odd nightshift. I have a meeting with my manager to see what they can offer but it’s not looking promising.

He’s put my kids in danger again.. I don’t think I can ever go back now.. thanks for reading.