My girlfriend lost trust for me
Hey i’m a guy in my 20s and my girlfriend is 19 and we’ve been together for than a year. I know we’re both young but our love is something else. I love her so much i could take more than just a bullet for her.
Recently she got mad at me for a reel i sent to my friend on instagram just to joke and make his girlfriend angry because they were staying at his house. The video contained a girl dancing and twerking. It wasn’t just one video it was like 5 or 6 i sent to him. Even my other friend sent it to him because we were on Playstation party and came up with this stupid idea. 2 days later my girlfriend found out after she looked into my phone when i was somewhere else. She said to me that i betrayed her trust and she won’t trust me again.
This is not the first time this has happened and i have to admit that i did some wrongs even before that and worse but it was only online, and i’ve never met another girl besides her. Now she’s barely responding to my text and phone calls. And i’ve asked her if she still wants to be together with me and she said “i don’t know”. I asked and searched online and they say that she will need some time alone without contact but it’s really really hard for me not to hear her sweet angel voice. She the love of my life and i don’t want to lose her. These silent few days have eaten me inside and i’ve been pondering about taking my car and drive 200km/h into a tree without a seatbelt and seal my fate.
This girl is my everything and i don’t want to lose her in any way. she’s the only one i want. please people of reddit, help me. (She told me “i love you more” after i told her that i love her but i was balling my eyes out on the phone with her. I don’t know if that’s just sympathy or she meant it.)