u/Plane-Scheme227

https://imgur.com/a/9xVxo0J

solo queue. never not seeing gigantic rank differences every single game. It's insane.

if im gold. then just give me gold.

if im bronze. let me just play bronze.

its so wild, this genuinely kills any drive i have. it gets so boring watching the same 25 bomb carry 3-4 underperforming players across the finish line.

i cant imagine a whole lot of people being on board with this. god only knows how much the player count has actually taken a nose dive.

(also the 555 rules they have for posts is wild. like its ok bro. take a day off. were on reddit.)

I've posted in here a couple times before asking the same thing but.. what am I doing wrong? Why do i spend 12+ hours each week just to have it completely flop in my face? I've been writing and performing for like 3 or 4 years now and just cannot get a grip on anything.

I try to put more "swing" into my voice, I try to act like I'm not "reading off the paper", I try to "add filters to my voice", I try to make "more engaging content".. and still nothing. I get 3 likes and 100 views on tiktok at best. (The platform that literally just hands out "viral" videos.)

I constantly feel like I'm back sliding. I posted the grossest, ugliest 25 second freestyle where I mumbled the whole song without ever looking up and that DOMINATES over my current stuff. Like I honestly don't get it. Am I just bad at content creation? Or does the music still sound like it's my first song I've ever made?

Can I please just have an honest take? Like I'm not giving this up. I genuinely refuse. It's almost out of spite at this point lmao. But why do I suck so much? What am I ignoring that actually matters? I use to at least get hate comments and people just telling me to "get better production" but now I'm deadass lucky to get 10 likes combined on 4 different platform.

I started releasing something every single week for the last 2 months and plan to do it another 10. Like I'm honestly trying to get my reps in.. but damn... when does it start to show? I spend 5/6 hours inside fl studio and feel like im actually coming along, but then I listen to a different artist and immediately hate myself. I believe in the song right up until release date. And then it sounds terrible.

For reference, I'm using an iPhone 13 and recording inside of a camper. Yes, I know that isn't the best set up, but you cannot tell me somebody like Eminem couldn't just make an absolute banger with it.

I don't know man. I'm just complaining I guess. I'm still gonna write something new tomorrow. And I'm still gonna release it. I'm just frustrated with myself. I want to be good so goddamn bad.

Onto the next.