u/Plane_Top_1117

im 15 and I'm very fat for my age. I think I am considered morbidly obese. I am 5,4 and I weigh 189 pounds. I used to be 210 and the same height. I am scared because I don't really think anyone will love me because I look so ugly. i'm not the cute kind of chubby with curves, I have no curves I look like a rectangle. does anyone have tips on loosing weight fast. also will anyone really ever love me romanticly? because I don't think anyone would ever want to see me naked.

so I cut on my upper thigh on 7/17 and I think it was to the fat layer but my mom thinks its to the muscle. anyways I was wondering if I could go swimming with the cut. It wasn't stitched to its not closed up. I'm not worried about the look of it im just worried about if it will irratate or increase the possiblity of infection for the cut.

today I cut deeper than I ever have and I think i reached the fat layer im not sure tho im very scared. It did not bleed very much but im not sure if I need stitches. I'm very scared to tell my mother that I relasped so going to the hospital may not be an option for me. I have a theripy appointment tomorrow and im not sure if I should tell my therapist that this happened. I'm just really really scared right now.