u/PlasticFit7262

I’m 280 days off adderall and caffeine, my main problems by far are sleep problems (2 hours for multiple nights in a row at times) very debilitating neck tension and bodily anxiety (significant tremors, body shaking etc).

I’m not sure if these are related to stimulants anymore or if it’s ptsd symptoms..

I recently had to visit the er due to very little sleep and psychotic symptoms emerging, they put me on seroquel but it doesn’t seem to do much for what I’m experiencing beside sedating me a bit- there is still significant hyperarousal

32 M, High performance and being “on” has become a part of who I am.
For me it was fitness. Specifically strength training and secondary to that running, which in hindsight was the running was just a way to manage the extreme anxiety..

My therapist says I’m suffering from what seems like (not officially diagnosed, waiting for a psychiatrist review) c-ptsd from severe bullying in high school. I was always the shortest skinniest kid around and other kids took advantage of that since I can remember.

I never wanted to be this helpless again and so I wanted to get stronger. But no matter how strong I got it was never enough, 6 years ago I started misusing prescribed adderall+caffeine to push past my natural limits until my body broke down.

As part of my journey I became a personal trainer specializing is in strength training and a dietician. My whole being revolved around fitness and nutrition, it was everything I could think of and talk about, very passionate but from a hollow place.

I’m now 9 months off stims during which my body started transforming (muscle loss/ fat gain), I stopped coaching and am facing my false identity trying to understand what I actually care about and want in life. I spent the last 17 years chasing my own tale and have no idea who I am now

If you’ve quit long term daily use of prescription stims and were completely substance and medication free during your journey (including caffeine) I’m interested in hearing what your experience has been like

A good friend of mine has abused cocaine over the past year and is dealing with paws. He now went to get an adhd diagnosis in order to get prescribed adderall as he has a hard time functioning due to his cocaine use.

I’m trying to warn him but I know I’m not objective as adderall ruined my life.. how likely is it that it won’t harm him?