my mom is supportive but she's starting to make me uncomfortable
I'm a young trans girl and I want to diy, I just don't want to get caught and disappoint my mom bcs she's kind of the only friend I've had my whole life 😭
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she's supportive, she tells me she'll love me no matter who I am and help me transition as an adult (even though I've been wanting to diy for a while), but she doesn't understand dysphoria much or how serious I am about this
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like, she keeps they/theming me even though I insist I'm a girl, acts like I'm being dramatic when I express my severe dysphoria, and insists that I'll want to get married to a woman someday (even though I expressed countless times I've never had feelings for anyone and don't want to get married)
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and she's become like, super Christian as of late. I consider myself Christian too, but she's been through some things and now Christianity has become her entire personality. I mean like only listening to Christian music and talking about how men and women are designed for different things or whatever, it's actually kinda unnerving 😭 she used to be edgy, she had piercings and listened to metal and stuff
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idk I guess this was just a vent. the point is she's my only irl support system and if she catches me diying idk what I'll do. I still love her and I don't want her to be afraid I'm doing something rash. I need to gather the courage to begin diy, I've held off for way, way too long