24F needs advice with 25M in opening our relationship
My partner and I have been talking about sharing each other with other people. However, we are both the jealous type and scared it might ruin our relationship when we actually push through with it. I like fantasizing him doing it with another woman when he eats me, and he likes fantasizing me also doing it with other men while we do it. The issue is, we’re scared that we might end things once it actually happens and that the thrill we are feeling now is just temporary. We, however, cannot stop fantasizing and don’t know what to do about it since we are tempted to go through with it.
For context, I have a tendency of breaking up with him when I feel bothered about anything (mostly about jealousy) and he would non-stop chase after me until I’ve come back to my senses. A big part of the hesitation is that he is scared that the chase would become harder and we might cause more pain to each other during the process since we tend to run our mouths during conflict and fights.
On another note, my boyfriend also had experience regarding the matter of open relationship with his past partner and it deeply bothers me. He advised that it did not end well and he does not want us to end up the same. However, I am tempted to experience what he experienced thinking it might lessen the feeling of jealousy once I have gained the same experiences that he had.
We’re both young and really confused, but also adventurous. We don’t know how to navigate our feelings and emotions towards what we want in life (open relationship) and are seeking guidance on how we can address this.