u/PomeloFlaky3059

I had to overcome the 18+ rule just so I could figure how to end this.

I've been addicted to viewing porn/jerking off for some time now. It started off with a weekly thing. Then it became daily and now twice a day. I have no idea how to stop to be honest. I try to distract myself but I end up doing it. I even wait, maybe 2-3 hrs but still it's stuck on my mind. It's mostly causing me emotional distress, and that feel of losing control.

I struggle a lot with depression and loneliness, even before getting addicted, but now I can't even tell if it's worse or not. The shame I'd usually feel afterwards is like.. non-existent and I feel ashamed about it, not the deed. Like some weird cycle. I think there's a little bit of hope in me, left still. Everytime the urge comes, I still try to distract myself but end up folding in mins.

I live a very boring life. At time of writing, I'd watch a few shows on Netlifx, jerk off, scroll on Insta and jerk off once more before heading to bed. On school days, it's just school and come home, jerk off, study, play some games and head to sleep. Feels like I'm rotting. I've got no confidence to do anything, or to even set myself to achieve something, because there's this constant self doubt and a "no way I can do it".

Maybe this insight works? I have no clue but here goes. Sometimes, I figure it's the want to watch and not to the actual deed so I look around for a couple mins and everytime I js keeping giving myself up. My record for this month of keeping away is 2 days (only because I was at a sleepover). If this goes on, I might lose my sanity with no explanations to anybody.

I haven't exactly talked to people who've gotten over this kind of thing. I appreciate any input.

I had to overcome the 18+ rule just so I could figure how to end this.

I've been addicted to viewing porn/jerking off for some time now. It started off with a weekly thing. Then it became daily and now twice a day. I have no idea how to stop to be honest. I try to distract myself but I end up doing it. I even wait, maybe 2-3 hrs but still it's stuck on my mind. It's mostly causing me emotional distress, and that feel of losing control.

I struggle a lot with depression and loneliness, even before getting addicted, but now I can't even tell if it's worse or not. The shame I'd usually feel afterwards is like.. non-existent and I feel ashamed about it, not the deed. Like some weird cycle. I think there's a little bit of hope in me, left still. Everytime the urge comes, I still try to distract myself but end up folding in mins.

I live a very boring life. At time of writing, I'd watch a few shows on Netlifx, jerk off, scroll on Insta and jerk off once more before heading to bed. On school days, it's just school and come home, jerk off, study, play some games and head to sleep. Feels like I'm rotting. I've got no confidence to do anything, or to even set myself to achieve something, because there's this constant self doubt and a "no way I can do it".

Maybe this insight works? I have no clue but here goes. Sometimes, I figure it's the want to watch and not to the actual deed so I look around for a couple mins and everytime I js keeping giving myself up. My record for this month of keeping away is 2 days (only because I was at a sleepover). If this goes on, I might lose my sanity with no explanations to anybody.

I haven't exactly talked to people who've gotten over this kind of thing. I guess this is my reachout for help. I appreciate any input.