Hating my Job
Hey everyone, I need to vent, as I’m not doing well mentally right now.
I feel like I’m at one of the lowest points I’ve been in a while, my best friend and baby kitten recently died, my other baby cat could also be sick with the same disease as the one that killed my other kitten, and my dog was diagnosed with cancer.
I live in a small town with no work opportunity, with only a few friends to do my hobby Brazilian jiujitsu with, which has been a major identity of mine for the last six years.
On top of all of this my job is horrendous, it’s early mornings, late nights, on call 24/7 as it’s supply chain management position with angry customers.
I hate my job to the point where I dread every day, weekends don’t feel like rest anymore as I’m constantly being blown up with phone calls, teams chats and email all throughout the night while I sleep and during my ‘rest days’. PTO is not PTO, as I constantly get called or text from leadership who needs things done since they’re burning.
I start dreading Monday the previous Friday, I feel numb and always walking around with high anxiety constantly.
What makes it unbearable is that, the workplace environment is terrible, I can’t stand my boss, there are no benefits, an almost impossible bonus structure, limited promotion path, almost nothing, and am significantly underpaid for the level of responsibility of this position.
This job is soulless.
Many of my counterparts call on PTO, sick leave or quit with nobody to backfill there positions, often leading me to do the work of two to three people in a day u til there is a replacement
After work I only have a couple of hours to cook, eat, get ready for the next day, and to try to have a life with my partner. I feel like I’m barely surviving. This is far from sustainable.
I’m trying my best to get past these 6 months as my lease ends and hope to move to Austin with my partner