It's not getting better is it.
Oh boy, the embarasment and hangxiety is kicking my ass even after 3 days. How I got into this emotional mess is of course my fault.
This past saturday I found myself with some friends at a local dive bar and after a few beers I decided to chat with this woman and we talked and drank for a good few hours I think, even held hands. At this point I was quite drunk and she looked in my eyes and for some fucking reason I decided to try and kiss her. She managed to turn away at the last second and said nothing about it, so my little peck hopefully never landed.
So I am left with the knawing feeling of having acted like a creep and I hope that I didnt make her feel uncomfortable.
Hangxiety has been a constant in my life for years now and getting worse everytime.