Was it ever just a kink ?
I 22 (AMAB) always had a relationship with porn , particularly trans porn, force femme, femboy etc. I can’t remember how I fell into it, but I’ve consumed for the last 4 years, it never was a dependency , I could go a week or 2 without consuming and be completely fine.
In the last 2 years I began to consider why I like that, I am bisexual but when I watch it I picture myself as the woman not the top. I began experimenting with cross dressing, which eventually led to me posting femboy NSFW content online, which I garnered some moderate attention from. The feeling of happiness I got from being complimented for being pretty completely eclipsed any complements I got associated with my male presentation .
I’ve been porn free for 4 months now, I haven’t posted but I do miss it. I did this to remove the sexual aspect to consider whether I am trans or not. I still have a heavy desire to transition but I wonder if I had never watched this porn would I actually feel this way ?