Late diagnosed Audhd baddie
Hi everyone! I’m new here (29F) and recently late diagnosed with AuDHD and severe anxiety (I’m medicated).
I’m conventionally attractive and fit the "baddie aesthetic." Because of how I look, making friends wasn't hard on the surface, but people always weird or “so funny” just for being myself lol. I always thought being weird was a fun part of me but I feel so burnt out and have no energy to even show that part of me anymore. Because im late diagnosed, telling friends has been super frustrating people literally refuse to believe I could be autistic and just tell me it’s probably only adhd because of my appearance and style.
People often want to connect purely based on superficial vibes. I’ve also took a lot of mental abuse from former Friends in life (really bad but at the time didn’t realize). Looking back, a lot of my past friendships felt codependent rather than genuine. I’d had instances where I’d mix friends (from different friend groups who I thought understood me) and next thing you know they’re bullying me together 😭 I can’t make this up but It's always left me questioning if people actually like me for me.
I’ve built an online presence but I don’t speak in my videos. I have to post on social media because I have a business. We’re in a recession
I guess I’m here to see if anyone has been through or is going through something similar?