u/PossiblyAnts

I’m so lost and hurt right now. A person I considered a friend suddenly left the discord server we were in together and removed me as their friend. I looked at their profile and they had Rudolf as their pfp. I talked to a mutual friend and confirmed it.

It hurts so bad. It’s one thing to have a random person online as a dupe, I can move past that. But to have someone I considered a friend, to have someone I really liked just disregard my feelings like this has left me feeling betrayed.

My biggest insecurity when it comes to relationships is thinking my partner deserves better than me. This has triggered that greatly. I can’t even look at pictures of Rudolf right now because all I think about is this friend and how she might be better for her than I am.

This person was friends with other people in this discord server (it’s a small server, so it’s more personal) and now I’m just going to be paranoid that people are supporting her over me behind my back as well. I loved the server and the people in it but it feels like less of a safe space for me right now. If I leave the server I’d be losing the one ficto space where I felt the safest, but if I stay I’m afraid that paranoia will eat away at me.

So now here I am. My relationship is hurting, I’m hurting, I lost a friend, and I’m potentially going to lose even more friends. What the fuck do I do?