Can I ask you a question, what do you hope to gain by all of this?
Like why don't you just slap me in the face? The audacity to ask a grieving parent why are you still fighting for answers for your child on why this happened. It's been seven months, I'm worried about you, and want to make sure you're approaching this from the "right angle". I care about you and don't want you getting more hurt in the pursuit of all this. I'm already hurt I'll never not be hurt. And like excuse my French but what the fuck are you talking about.
It's been seven months almost eight, just hate when people say oh I'm saying this cause i worry about you. No you're not, not really, you're saying it because grief makes you uncomfortable. And I'd much rather you say hey I'm uncomfortable than say what do you hope to gain by all of this?
Idk buddy, answers to what keeps me up at night, making sure no other parent has to go through this, research and grief support. I'm looking for understanding and change to an already broken system who turns a blind eye to grief because it's "uncomfortable". But I guess I can say it louder if you really want to know what I hope to gain.