Am I caught in an illusion?
I was driving on the Confederation Bridge in New Brunswick, Canada, at around 5:30 in the morning, singing this bhajan that I just absolutely love, and I started recording it. The Confederation Bridge of Canada connects Prince Edward Island to New Brunswick and is 12.9 km long. Just so you know, below it’s all ocean!
I came across this bhajan through the Indian philosopher Acharya Prashant, whose interpretation really attracted me to this bhajan. I think I am still trying to grasp what exactly Kabir Sahab is trying to convey, but this is simply my personal take on it.
The lines I am singing in the video are:
“जुगन-जुगन समझावत हारा, कहा न मानत कोई रे।
तू तो रंगी फिरै बिहंगी, सब धन डारा खोई रे।”
“For ages, I have been trying to explain it; yet no one listens. You, like a bird, keep wandering coloured by the world, and in doing so, you lose all your real wealth.”
What I understood:
My understanding of these phrases of Kabir Sahab is that the truth has been spoken and reiterated over and over, but the mind is not willing to listen. It only seeks to keep moving along the path of seeking in colors, pleasures, possessions, achievements, etc., hoping that the next thing it will grasp will complete it.
He seems to be speaking to the ego: wherever the ego goes, like a chameleon, it takes on the colors of everything it encounters, be it consumerism, materialism, objects, or desires. In trying to fill its own emptiness, the ego keeps stuffing itself with more things that, sooner or later, it becomes burdened by.
However, whatever the ego takes on is not permanent. Objects, desires, relationships, even our dreams and worries, are all temporary. And in chasing after fleeting things to fill a void within ourselves, the ego has lost sight of what truly matters inside. Kabir Sahab’s metaphor of the mind as a bird, colored by the world and flitting from place to place, is what I think is trying to capture that sense of longing to fill this inner emptiness.
My personal reflection
What I feel is that this has been exactly the same with me in life. Five years ago, I was a completely different person; the things I desired, feared, and thought about don't really concern me much today. However, many new desires and fears have emerged in their place. What I thought was real and what I was fixated on is gone. I feel that today, I am worried about completely different things than I used to be.
This makes me ask myself: if my internal desires, ideas, and dreams can change so drastically, how can any of these things that are ‘mine’ be considered permanent? Isn’t everything that concerns me in life just like the mind changing from one color to another, from one desire to another, and confusing those to be permanent while wasting time and life doing so?
I don’t have an answer, but this bhajan makes me reflect on what I am chasing and what it is that I am really looking for. If there’s a stop to this endless running around, I would love to hear your personal take on these lines, and also to know if this interpretation is close to what you think Kabir Sahab could have meant here.
Full bhajan:
तेरा मेरा मनुआ कैसे एक होई रे।
मैं कहता हूँ आँखन देखी, तू कहता कागद की लेखी।
मैं कहता सुरझावनहारी, तू राख्यो उरझाई रे॥
मैं कहता तू जागत रहियो, तू जाता है सोई रे।
मैं कहता निरमोही रहियो, तू जाता है मोहि रे॥
जुगन-जुगन समझावत हारा, कहा न मानत कोई रे।
तू तो रंगी फिरै बिहंगी, सब धन डारा खोई रे॥
सतगुरु धारा निर्मल बहै, बामे काया धोई रे।
कहत कबीर सुनो भाई साधो, तब ही वैसा होई रे॥
Youtube vedio: https://youtu.be/08zoPSOtV6w?si=EzNUs7AXbBfavlAq