u/Practical-Lynx-1412

Does anyone genuinely enjoy listening to their recitals? I record myself daily in the practice room so I’m well aware of how I actually sound, this post is not about that.
I’ve talked to many friends at the conservatory I attend and they all feel the same way. I’ve listened to my friend’s recitals and thought they played well but they hated hearing themselves later on the recording. I listened to one of my friend’s recitals live and tiny intonation slips didn’t bother me very much but on the recording it stood out a lot more. Maybe since an audio recording is a lower quality replication of the actual recital it contributes to the negative perception. It could also just be like hating the sound of your own voice. I’m trying not to view this in an overly pessimistic way, it’s just quite interesting how we are often our own harshest critics. I think after my next recital I’m going to hold off on watching for a long time.

The situation surrounding allegations connected to the Royal Conservatory of Music in Toronto deserves far more transparency and accountability from the institution.

The school’s handling of this controversy also raises concerns for current students. Even if some allegations may never be fully substantiated due to the passage of time or limitations of evidence, institutions still have a responsibility to listen seriously, and prioritize student safety over reputation.

The classical music world already struggles with major power imbalances, especially involving young students and prestigious institutions. Schools like the RCM exist because of their students and community. Without them, the institution is nothing.

Many people in the music community have pointed to the concerns raised publicly by concert pianist Jonathan Biss, as well as Lusiana Lukman’s own petition calling for an independent investigation and institutional accountability: https://c.org/XC7Shtsm8W

I also discovered a petition calling for the removal of the Royal Conservatory’s royal charter: https://c.org/cv5NWyVp4J

Regardless of where people stand, one thing should be non-negotiable: allegations involving abuse or sexual violence must never be dismissed. Students deserve safe learning environments free from abuse.

Thoughts about listening back to recitals