Advice for first “higher stakes” audition?
This post might be a bit wordy, sorry about that. (I’ve never made a post on reddit, so sorry if my etiquete is off or this is against the rules in any way)
For some context: I am entering my first year of music school (music ed major orchestral track/violin focus) after playing violin for nine years in an underfunded public school music program (lol). I’ve never had any proper private lessons, I did online very inconsistently for about two years and had one lesson with a professor at the college I’m attending back in my sophomore year of hs but that’s about it. I also have never been apart of a “higher level” orchestra (I’ve done Area All State but because of the area I live in, it’s not as competitive as it is in most places and you’re almost guaranteed acceptance. I also never had to audition because they just judged our seating and acceptance based on our NYSSMA solo score). The most high stakes and only audition I’ve done is my college audition which I submitted a video for.
I’m looking for any advice at all regarding my seating test for my college’s symphony. They provided excerpts, which I’ve honestly struggled to learn. Not because of the difficulty or because I don’t know what they sound like (I usually listen to them while working), but because of the free time I’ve had this summer with my job, and I think some sort of mental block. I learned the music for my college audition on my own, so this isn’t my first time and im fairly good at sight reading. I have horrible performance anxiety that severely impacts my playing ability, both on video and in person which isn’t helping how I feel about my seating test either. I’ve talked to my high school orchestra teacher about it a bit but I still feel like I need any and all advice that I can get.