u/Brosky7

Just as a preface, thid topic is probably taboo, and I see why it should be posted somewhere else, but I’d rather be honest so I can get the best answer.

I was wondering how to get an identity that come from Christ rather than externalizing it from other things.

These things can be like what I am good at, my workspace, what I look like, where I come from, etc.

Here’s what I feel is a bit inappropriate to say here, but for identity, I have currently intensely struggled with internalized racism.

I also have issues with not understanding my purpose, so I kinda started feeling this lethargic depression.

I just want Christ to be what fulfills me instead of who I am, or what I can/will do. I have started listening to God in silence, and that is where I am at.

How can I get a new self image that God can give me?

So, I looked at my cousin matches on 23 & Me, and was surprised that an actual pretty large amount of them had trace East Asian. The two most common East Asian genetic markers to show up was the Manchu/Mongolian, and Siberian. However, I also saw others get things like Northern Tibetan, general Chinese, and somehow they even got Japanese and Korean!

I researched when this entered, and now I have a question. It said we most likely picked it up as Jewish Radhanites, but (to what I've found) Ashkenazi Jews split into their own identity from other Jewish groups around 9-11th centuries, and the Silk Road ended during the 15th century.

I was thinking, yeah... maybe they did go on the Silk Road, and picked up the EA genes on the way, but I was also wondering if being the population was so small, what is the chance that other nomadic peoples of EA descent had a lot of undocumented intermarriage with Ashkes during their population bottleneck in Europe. It would have been groups like Avars or Magyars. It's just that if Ashkenazi Jews have like... 2% baked in Yellow River (illustrative DNA) that actually sounds like quite a lot if you think about the timeline.

I feel like God has wanted me to practice sitting with Him in silence, but even though I think of it every day, and think of it a lot (including now) something in me just refuses. This odd refusal is bothering me and causes a lot of regret, and I feel... idk, like... sad or something?

Also, I know that things like this usually have a root, but Idk what it could be. A common one would be that people feel like they have strayed to far for God to accept them again, but I know God has His arms open, and actually wants to be close together! The only answer I can come up with is that I find it to look boring.

I have thought about this legitimately every day, and I have maybe listened to Him twice in 3 months.

It's immediate procrastination when I think about it. My soul wants this so bad, and I can physically feel the intense desire for this time with Him, but a different part of me is using all of its strength to refuse for some reason.

What might be going on?

Mine just started fruiting this year, and some of them are starting to turn purple! I’ve seen description on google of what I would want it to look like to make the best oil, but it didn’t have any pictures.

Thank you all for the help!😁

Mine just started fruiting this year, and some of them are starting to turn purple! I’ve seen description on google of what I would want it to look like to make the best oil, but it didn’t have any pictures.

Thank you all for the help!😁

I realized that I needed to excel in some things, and I saw Erling Haaland a lot, and he was very motivating because he seems to think exactly the way I wish I did sometimes.

For instance, yes, he absolutely has work ethic, but one of the sole reasons I believe he works is because he just really loves what he does, and instead of meeting some sort of skill quota and being frustrated, he just does it because he likes it.

I bet almost anyone would improve at something more if they just chose to enjoy in their improvement instead of worrying about being better so that you can like it later.

He also is really good at laughing at himself, and you can see clips of him laughing at all the memes about him. This quality would be great for building friendships with people, because they know that you're a safe person to joke with, and laughing is so much better than things being personal. To be completely transparent, I have found myself being oversensitive about a lot of things lately.

He just looks so... happy and joyful. I want to be that way in all that I do.

I know this might seem out of the blue, unless posts like this actually do show up sometimes, but I am trying to integrate learning into whatever I can, but I haven't made a lot of progress yet. (I know about 70 words, so I would mostly have to speak English, while maybe integrating some Hebrew phrases.)

I was thinking, would anyone in their later teens to early 20's want to play video games, and help me out by speaking Hebrew every now and then and slowly adding more as I get better?

Btw, it doesn't have to be any sort of scheduled type of thing. Even if it was a 20 minute game, that would help me out!

I assume something like r/language_exchange is better for this question, but I wanted to give it a shot in the main Hebrew subreddit first. I apologize if this type of question is not good here.

My family migrated to America a pretty long time ago, but before that they lived in Ukraine, with a very high chance that they were merchants according to the historical context I found on google. (I believe they live in regions as far east as Zlatapol, and as far West as Brody or Galicia throughout generations).

I heard the merchants traveled a lot, where they had connections to places like Istanbul, Moscow, Central Europe, Belarus, etc. Being Levantine/Coptic Egyptian showed up, could that be real genes? If so, is it probably a distant Mizrahi?

I have noticed that things are not jade green and are turning kind of a more yellowish tint, and it needs nitrogen.

Currently, I am giving it 2-12-12, but I think it needs some more Nitrogen.

I am trying to find a way to get the notes I use to roll if that makes sense, but every thing is too... perfect or something. Like... Like a robot.

I am trying to get piano in a sequence with 8th notes have three pairs of 2 notes, where it climbs up and the first note of the third pair has a stronger beat. Some of this will be done via intonation, but if you understand what I mean, I want it to be stronger because it's spot in the song as well.

The last thing I just mentioned, is all I can really say, and I can't ask to show the climbing, but for the pattern that just seems to move nicely, you can kind of hear them in songs like "Rude Buster" - Toby Fox (from Deltarune), and, "Toad's Factory," - Asuka Ota and Ryo Nagamatsu/Nintendo, in Mario Kart 7.

Just wondering, because I have a plant in full sun, but there is a branch perfectly placed above the fruit that it's growing, so I look out my window and notice that the flower is almost always shaded until evening.

I got R-Z93, but am confused being different sources say it came from different places.

For examples, different sites have said place like Iran, Tajikistan, Siberia, or Mongolia, and from Iran to Mongolia is a huge distance.

So like… where does it genuinely come from?

So, my 3-G-Grandma is ethnically Russian, but I did not know this until I took the test.

The reason it's so hard to figure out, is because her maiden name is Polish, but my family claims she was adopted out of Lithuania, and the people who adopted her had a Scottish surname even though my family lived in Germany during that time (or as little as I know, that seems to be the case).

I was hoping to find her and her parents and so on while looking at documents, but I can't find anything. I saw the document once and can't find it again, but it was broad and literally only said she was born in Russia. Since it's such a huge country, that tells me nothing.

Let's just say that hypothetically, I knew about an ancestor from 15 generations ago. Even though that would never show up on a test, would that DNA in the absolute most miniscule way be in me at all? Like, is it possible to be 0.0000000000000001% of something but sense it's so small, it just doesn't show up?