u/Practical_Parking321

I have always been fat. Looking back i never had the chance to be thin

I am a super obese gay man over 800 lbs and I obviously want to find love and a partner but the logistics of being this large make that nearly impossible (which i totally understand not a pitty comment). Lately when I try to connect with someone they tend to be real cool and funny in the beginning but then it turns into what I perceive of them wanting to know more about my weight, what I eat etc. Is it safe to say maybe at this moment in my life those are the only types of people that I will attract?

Im having one of those days at 850+ where I feel like im never going to lose the weight in my current situation. My dad enables me and I try and not eat as much and do weight training in my bed which he supports but then if I say I want food he gets it no questions asked. I have a food addiction and he has a sweet spot for me. I was in accident a few years back and its what sprung on my weight gain. Ive always been big but that was the turning point for my current life. My dad always says he counts his blessing everyday that I didnt die but I feel like im just slowly dying. The other thing is I get offers all the time from men that want to "be with me" but the two ive let in just wanted to see me bigger. Sorry to rant but im in mood today. Thanks Ryan