u/Present-Surround-649

As the title suggests. I am done with everything. I don't understand if life has no meaning, so why do we humans exist? It's tiring... humans are rotten to core, they are so evil and insensitive. I get targeted by my school teachers every day. There's a lot of things going in my life right now.

I srsly don't understand, why do other people even try so hard? Why can't we just live and let others live? I don't even have a will to live. But I can't die either. I am tired.

I just started learning Chinese Mandarin. I am so confused about the resources and have no idea about it. Currently, I am using the Superb Chinese app and Habrin Mandarin yt channel to study. I have no idea what books to read, what more to do. And whereto learn hanzi from. Please help!!