u/Prestigious_Salt8930

I seem to get posterior bleph mostly in one eye but usually following a stressful period.

Is this usual? It’s like it’s my body’s warning system that I need to chill out - usually resolves itself in a week until next time

This last six weeks I’ve had nursing exams, placement in a lot of dry cold air, - previously I had been grieving. The loss of a pet

Frustrating to be in placement and seeing experienced nurses tell a patient to take some deep breaths just so they can write an acceptable number down and move the pt on

We are taught not do this - low sats need to be looked at since by the time you finish your note they are dropping again

I was told today “ask him to take some deep breaths” when I voiced concern about low O2
She told me to tell him to take deep breaths. I said we are taught not to do that. She asked by who - I said the uni

So she did it and discharged 🤦🏻‍♀️

I’m currently on placement and last week I had the sniffles not because I was sick or anything but I think it was just so cold in theatre that I was sniffling and my buddy nurse and the anaesthetist pick up on it and ask am I sick because we don’t want to get sick. I said I wasn’t sick the next day though two theatre nurses turned up and said they have a cold. What are the rules for working or even turning up when you’re sick even admitting it?

I understand that maybe some people don’t have sick leave and that they’ll lose pay but I’m just wondering why I was badgered just for sniffling and yet two nurses turned up sick and no one bat an eyelid

I like to be useful and helpful on placement

On the wards it’s easy to be more useful because you can do a lot more to help

I’m in theatre for four weeks and obviously there is a lot I can’t do

I’m trying to pre empt and get into the swing but each buddy nurse is different - I end up feeling in the way, or they do something different to how I’ve been taught the day before

I leave feeling like I’ve been more of a hindrance than a help

I’m in third year and exams are soon.

I only need 24 marks to pass the subject but my anxiety is telling me “what if you don’t get that”

I’m terrible in exams I write the answer but I leave the in between out I think. I go straight to the answer rather than the reasoning

Under exam and time pressure though I seem to lose half of what I know, diseases become jumbled, terms get mixed up.

On top of all this, I’ve never felt like I belonged in nursing school. Never felt like I was smart enough (I am an average an and b student so the realistic part of me knows I’m not stupid )

It’s like I’m getting close to the end the more fearful I get I’ll fail

No photo to show as this young one was quite animated.

The kids don’t like spiders, but the youngest is starting to replicate me in “no, don’t kill it, remove it”

So last night there was a huntsman up on the roof that got down with a broom. She wasn’t keen on it being outside her room or when it ran up the pole, but in the light she did want to see it and said “I like it”

Just not enough to live with it. 🤣

Her father stirs us up by saying “I’ll get the fly spray” to which he got two strong objections and of course, the intended reaction!

Nothing important here except that kids do in fact watch and can learn your tolerance and kindness

Chronic low ferritin - finally getting an infusion.

I really hope I can keep it high with a top peach year or so. Not sure what to expect after. I’ve been low for so long I just think this is “normal” and my body just goes with it 😂