u/Pretend_Reputation8

My life is messed up in all ways. I got married at 18 to a husband I'm still with 20 years later. We have four kids 10-19yrs old. Both of us are gay. We've both hidden it our whole lives until we came out to our children and direct family last Thanksgiving. I have had the same partner for three years. My husband is more of the "body count" gay without wanting a relationship. I feel empty. Like my whole life is a sham. I'm a teacher. My coworkers and "friends" don't know who I really am. I feel like I've wasted my life. I can't get 40 years back... I've just wasted it.