Apology/thank you to my hospital staff?
I'll try to keep it brief. I was hospitalized for about 3 days after my parents found me cyanotic and unresponsive. I know no one \*wants\* to be in the hospital, but I have a ton of medical trauma from repeated sexual assault that happened with a nurse when i was hospitalized as a teenager, and was in a state of panic almost the whole time. I wasn't intentionally being nasty and wasn't physically aggressive, but from the little bits I remember, I sure was unpleasant/difficult to work with, and they were doing their best.
Now that I'm at home and stable (and have little bits of memory coming back) I am feeling overwhelmingly ashamed by my own behavior. Would it be appropriate (or possible) to send a message somehow that at least some of the medical staff who worked with me might see? Just something brief like "I'm sorry for how I acted when I was under your care. My protest and refusal behavior was related to previous trauma, and fear that I wasn't going to make it out alive. Thank you for your care, kindness and patience, and keeping me alive and as comfortable as possible, despite me not being a very pleasant or easy patient to work with. I will try to manage myself better in the future".
I would love to send something like flowers or a treat, but due to finances it's limited to a note/card/email. Let me know if you have any ideas of the best way to go about this, or if I should just leave it alone and try to do better in the future. Thanks in advance.