He told his wife, and I don’t know what to do.
I never posted in this sub, however I spent a lot of time reading all the posts here and in other similar subs to look for reassurance. Which just caused me more stress sometimes, but sometimes it was a safe place for me.
I had an affair with a MM for 9 months which was the most loving and emotional connection that can exist between two people. I never met anyone before who cared about me the way he did. He did everything for me, he helped me with a lot of things, and during hard conversations he never left me alone. He was always there when I needed him.
We were planning to be together almost from the start, but sometimes it failed, because he was scared to blow up his life and face the storm. But a month ago he was very determined about making things right and he even told our friend how he plans to go with things. I’m not the only one who believed him, the people who know about me, they all did. And now, as he promised, he confessed and told everything to his wife. He wrote me a long message how he feels, and that she asked him to either stay and work on it, or leave and never come back. He left and went to be with his friend. He also told his kids and his wife family’s.
After that he didn’t contact me for 2 days, so I texted him and he said he feels every kind of emotion right now and he wants to make a decision that is for him and not for anyone. He sent me long texts about it, and told me he doesn’t want me to feel that I owe him anything and that I’m free. He said he needs time and space. And then he unfollowed me and he just doesn’t respond now.
I know I will probably see him again, because half of my stuff is with him, but right now I don’t have anyone to talk to. I’m confused and I don’t know what’s true anymore and what’s not. I’m a very caring person and I would be able to give space and time to him, but only if there’s communication. Right now I’m spiralling and I lost it and sent him multiple texts. Because I feel like he just let me go. And the truth…who knows. Maybe he is really struggling alone or he is with his wife who told me to cut contact with me, but in either case he wants me to let him go now.