u/Pride-Autistic

Complex feelings after moving abroad as an only child of a divorced family

that was just three of us, mom dad and me. then divorce, then i started living with my mom. we got so depent on each other. now im 31 i just moved abroad and sudden rush of complex feelings drowning me every time i think of my mom.. she was a sweet girl who just lived a life in abuse. me? i am all she got from her life! now im abroad she tells me i was the only one in her life that loved her so much and now im not with her. I know that I cannot overcome the situation or the grief, and this truely is killing me inside... my mom sacrificed all her life just to become alone when she most needed me.. i donno what to do.. i can be alone im used to it since i was a child, but i cannot imagine my mom's crying out of loneliness, it's like a knife in my heart.. i wish i could sacrifice my life to her.. no matter the consequences.. society and even my parents expect me to become successful but at what cost... please help me im so desperate

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u/Pride-Autistic — 4 days ago