Jujur gue cocok banget sama pekerjaan nya, tapi pengalaman gue belum cut out untuk bekerja sebagai one man show. Alhasil, banyak kesalahan dan sering dimarahin sama si founder karena gue direct report ke dia. Padahal gue sudah give my best tapi selalu ada kesalahan. Gue belakangan ini stress banget karena kepikiran banget sama kesalahan gue.
Any advice?
The symptoms show up every month like clockwork, which is why I suspect PMDD. I talked about having a very difficult time during my luteal phase with my obgyn (visited my obgyn for a separate issue) and she dismissed me, so I am unsure how to bring it up to my bf.
I have a history of being cheated on my my ex and every luteal, I am convinced my current bf is cheating on me someway somehow but I just have not discovered it yet. Went to therapy for the trauma, and I think I am doing a lot better on non luteal days especially. I trust him and he treats me well and respects me, we have a healthy and honest relationship.
But the thoughts and overthinking creeps back during luteal every month. So much so to the point I convince myself my bf would be happier without me if we broke up because I feel like such a burden to him. Bahkan kadang aku harus ngilang beberapa jam dari chat cuman buat hold myself back untuk tidak putusin dia. And believe me, putusin dia is the last thing I want to do. After Day 1 of my period, everything goes back to normal though, I am my usual happy self and am able to rationalize any bad / negative thoughts. My head is much clearer.
In reality, he knows I tend to overthink during luteal and gives me reassurance and is patient with me. Buys me my favourite food during my period, makes sure I get enough rest.
I would like to bring up PMDD because I don't want him to feel like I don't trust him. I want him to know I do trust him and that my normal self is on my non luteal days. Its just that hormones just hijack my brain and body so bad.
Anyone been through something similar?