u/Prize_Safe7826

So. Friends friend accused me of touching a female inappropriately.

What happened is 2 days ago my housemate had her birthday party.
Her friend a couple, started accusing me of touching her inappropriately and saying I judged her character just because i told them not to sleep in my room.

Just because i said not to sleep in my room they got aggressive and then all of a sudden the girls boyfriend started saying i touched her inappropriately.
And was threatening me.

I am stressed and i am feeling suicidal now. I dont know what to do. We all are international students here in oxford.
I feel worthless and stressed about the situation.
I dont want to end my life but still it is haunting me and making my life difficult.
I havent slept since then and scared to go close to any girl now.

Can anyone advice me what steps i can take to prevent them from spreading this misinformation about me.

Thank you

Hello everyone. Me male 26. When i was around 10 yrs old. I was asked by some older boys to show my penis to them. And they showed theirs. Then they wanted me to put theirs in my mouth and basically lick me everywhere. They always pulled me aside where people wouldn’t come and do this all the time. There was a day when they also tried putting it in me from behind. This continued for years. They showed me porn and made me do such things. Made me go touch other girls who were my friends in the same complex. They used to ask me to try lift their skirts. But i never tried to do so cuz I was an introvert and never tried laying hands on a girl cuz idk. I have sisters so i know thats wrong. But they doing stuff to me didnt stop. Since then i am afraid of staying around men. It disgusts me. Even after 15 years. I dont like men being friends with me too. And till the age of 16 he did this. And idk i used to listen to him like he owns me. Idk of out fear or what was it. I am always scared of him. Like he does get aggressive so idk. Years passed and then.

In 2022. Working on someone else’s motorcycle, i lost my half thumb. Had a re-attachment surgery which failed. Total 15 days, 8 days in ICU. Later had pain in the stump and again had a surgery in 2024 december. But didnt solve the issue. I still have hyper sensitivity.

I was a person who used to faint just having conversations which involved surgery, fractures, or blood. And this happened.
I am 26 years old now. As an Indian there was no support for mental healthcare. Its just me who’s suffering.
I broke up with my girlfriend after a year which is around 2023.
Distanced myself from all my friends. Lost all new friends too.
Lost all my happiness , my hobbies, i lost myself actually.

Later i started torturing myself because of who i became.
I basically cheated on my ex. And again on the other too.
Its become a pattern where i am unable to stay with a single person. When i realise i am wrong, it feels like i am out of a dream.

I left the country in 2025 and came to England.
Same happened here. Couldn’t maintain friendships. Some madefun of me cuz i dont have a thumb.
Some called me weirdo cuz how i act.( cuz i be alert and sometimes). I hate people for no reason.
Now people hate me.
Lost all happiness.
And now i basically hit my thumb on purpose so it hurts me alot and i get to cry. Feels like i am become a sadist cuz i cant hurt others so i hurt myself. No matter what bad happens to me.
Now I am in Oxford UK. For my Msc. So many months and yet no friends.
And back again to hitting my thumb stump. So it hurts like hell and also i slap myself.
Does anyone else go through issues like these?

Does this happen to anyone else?
I just wanted to share about it.