u/Professional-Cut8260

I spent 1 year as an exchange student and I just came back to my home country. It was the most beautiful time in my life. It has been 10 days and I'm still thinking about my home in Amsterdam. I had my favorite coffee place in the neighborhood, visited west/east/north/south amsterdam all, and went to 10+ other cities. I learned language and got A1. King's day, liberation day, and many other outdoor events held in the park....... Winter was hard bur it was worth it. Already miss the taste of coffee, my neighborhood, buildings, and everything. Wish I come back someday.

I'm in Netherlands as exchange student and I'm from east asia. I just got back from the Greece trip and heard a news that my uncle died and they have finished funeral. My family did not tell me about it before I came back cuz they knew I'm traveling.

The next day after hearing news I hanged out with my crush. Of course I was ugly as hell since I cried a lot and did stress eat. I've liked him for months and clearly he did not see me more than friends that he hang out sometimes. It did help me little bit but still, it is hopeless cursh.

I'm stil tired from my trip and I'm on my period. I have tons of assignment and exams on the way. House is messier than ever and I have not eaten properly for days. I have no will to do anything.

What should I do? I have so many emotions and don't wanna do anything. I called my mon and cried again today.